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A Ride

We find ourselves in Langmusi, a town of high elevation. I have promises to keep. With Fumiko a horse ride is a request on repeat. My capitulation early. “Liyi I understand you have horses”. “Yes.” “My daughter and I would like to go for a ride”. “Three days OK?” “Absolutely”. Always the attraction to suffering through distance. “I have five women leaving tomorrow”. “Perfect, my daughter is ready for some sisterhood.” “But I think you are too fat”. “I sensed discrimination”. “You are over 85 kg I think?” “Not by much”. “85 is too fat for a Tibetan pony”. “Fat is a strong word.” “You must walk”. I smiled. “Of course, I will walk. All day will I walk”.
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On our last horse ride Fumikos horse kicked me solidly in the shins. The resulting swelling was such that I watched for birth. My two instead of four was an unexpressed relief. The night before Fumiko was unconfined excitement. The only shadow were her sulphur belches. A stomach in discontent or giardia. The belches grew into vomiting through the night. By morning I was ready to call it. But the hero of the story was having none of it. A bland breakfast. A last vomit, a mount up and a pronouncement “I’m OK now.” And so she was.

The valley started wide and green. An overgrown golf course. Ideal for nomads and their grazers. The ponies climbed toward the pass at 2.5 mph. Hiking is slightly faster so I was free to roam. Bending wildflowers in pursuit of my own vistas. Laying amongst them. The fastest way to stilling ones entirety. Besides when I walked next to the horses I felt like Monty Python’s coconut guy. We rounded a bend to an explosion of yaks. The green spotted black. Their strangled bellows emanating from no obvious exit.
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Yaks are central to the Tibetan nomads existence. Fire, meat, tents, cheese, clothes, milk, transport and yogurt all source at the shaggy yak. I’m sure there is plenty more. Their numbers parted as we climbed to the pass. Upon cresting an ambush of white. A thousand displeasured sheep screaming “bad” poured down. Beyond them a valley thick with yak and our home for the night.

Home is where your tent is. This tent was made from yak hair. Think inch thick burlap. 20 panels of it. Every year a panel is replaced. A full recycling takes taking place every two decades. Enter through the front front flap. To the right a raised sleeping platform made of dried mud. Covered in branches and then again in carpets. To the left the kitchen and the yak dung pile. Central is the small dung stove. The roof is seamed to let the build up escape. Rules. No shoes on the bed. No pointing your feet at the stove. And no combing your hair inside. Total size, maybe 18 x 18. Slept 10 snuggly.
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Our host was a petite Tibetan woman with popeye biceps and an elevated work ethic. I offered to help with dung collection. For the experience you know. As did a French woman with the endearing name of Auld. Think New Year’s. Our host sized us, then tossed some baskets. She lifted her rake and it began. But first a dung education. Dried dung burns, and burns well. Some methods of drying. Hand plop dung onto walls. When it falls off it is ready. Or pile it into mountains. Remove dried layers. Here on the grasslands spread thinly by hand when wet. After four days rake it up. Which is what we did. And did. Long past experience, well into work. Sweating. Huffing at altitude. Our raker grinning maniacally. I straightened looking for a break. Fields of dung spread far before me. A raker grunt brought me back to my pile.
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There were breaks. We tried to milk a yak. Sunscreen lubricated fingers a modern deterrent to effective nipple tugs. We tried the sling. Not evolved since David had a go at Goliath. Tordan, our guide, had a range of 300 feet, accurate at 100 feet. The stones used to drive off wolves and move sheep and yaks in a desired direction. We simply embarrassed ourselves in the sling department. We were shown where the Tibetan mastiff’s were staked and the range of their leashes. Warned that they attacked all that was strange. We being the strangest things out here.

Night came down. A wheat dough was stretched into loops. Similar to taffy. When the loop threatened the floor it was handplucked into bite-sized segments. Then flung into a boiling soup pot. Eight sets of fingers making short work of the process. The tent warmed with the stove and activity. A dot of comfort on a cold plain.

The morning with its shock of 10 people in one bed. Morning constitution in a communal ravine. A ride to a mountain and its subsequent climb. Respectable at 15,000 feet. Fumiko educated in the “to that rock and rest” approach to mountaineering. A father’s pride at her summiting. On that summit prayer flags letting the wind carry their words aloft. Surrounding giant wooden arrows plunged into the high point. Don’t know why.

Then yet more hours in the saddle to another nomads tent. This one set in a red rocked canyon. Large horned yaks standing sentinel on narrow ledges looking down on our progress. Calling to mind Greek myth and Minotaurs. I arrive out in front thanks to Tordan’s constant pointed out shortcuts. Off trail in the wildflowers and skulls. Fumiko the last to camp. Her horse the unfortunate victim of an early lobotomy. It’s gait that of a zombie on the move.
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There was more. A carbonated spring, a bloated boar, a garland from purple robe and a runaway truck. But I’ve gone on long enough. Suffice it to say Langmusi eventually arrived in our sights. As we closed in Tordan dismounted and walked beside me. We were the same age and I enjoyed his comradery Though we only had about six words in common. I affectionally patted his shoulder. He smiled and took my hand. And that is how we walked into town.

Flow

What's left of the Great Wall out West

What’s left of the Great Wall out West

Hurtling down the silk road on the way to Zhangye from Wuwei. To the right endless fields of sunflowers,. The seed, not the florist variety. To the left mile after mile of the Great Wall. Not the postcard wall, but the eroding mud core of the wall stripped of bricks. Us with tennis neck.

Arrival in Zhangye at 5:00 PM. A tight ship. Early plans for tomorrow. 5:15 in the guesthouse. The temple with a promising Buddha closes at six. Dump the packs. “Let’s go.” “But dad I gotta pee.” “Hustle” “Can’t we relax?” “The Buddha calls.” “It’s close, we can walk.” 5:30 where the hell is it? The maps insane. Flag a taxi. Much, much further. The map was insanely optimistic. 5:45, the front gate. $.80 to the driver. Tickets into the temple. I tell Fumiko to bend her knees. Anyone under 1.40m is half price. The ticket lady looks at the clock. My smile that of a supplicant. Her fingers move to separate perforation. Were in.

Pilgrim

Pilgrim


We enter the weathered wooden hall. The chanting stills us. Hundreds of brown robed pilgrims follow the lead monks cadence. Their yellow umbrellas inexplicable. What light there is seems aged. We lean against an incensed pillar, it’s surface slippery with the oil of generations. We wait for the Buddha in the immeasurable piousness.
The Chant

The Chant

Slowly he makes his way to our adjusting eyes. “Da bigger da Buddha da better” goes the old saying. No argument. This Buddha is much better. Stretched out on its side. Like your favorite position for watching TV on the couch. Not sitting like your conventional Buddha. This Buddha has been comfortable for centuries. And at over 100 feet long it is bigger. A swastika adorns it’s chest. Not Adolf’s stolen aberration, but a reverse wheel of life. The eyelids seamed to limit the release of light. The hair blue indicating the highest levels of enlightenment. It’s belly hollow, which allowed neighborhood kids to play inside up until 50 years ago.

Big Buddha and big brother watching

Big Buddha and big brother watching

Big Buddha feet

Big Buddha feet


I decide I like religions that turn their Gods into playgrounds. I decide I like really big Gods. But most of all I decide I like being in the presence of believers when the conversation with their God seems two ways. Even if we have to rush to hear it.

(Aug 5, 2015)

Fate

Halteman_Fate_FullSizeRender 1Eight thousand workers toiled for years to build the army of terra-cotta warriors. By order of the Emperor. Who wanted an army to guard him and his treasures in the afterlife. The faces of each warrior are individualistic. Who were the models? The workers themselves. Did those workers know that their corresponding warrior was in essence their tomb? I think so. For many of the warriors were found signed by the workers who made them. A reaching attempt at posterity. For those workers knew. They knew that the location of an emperors tomb must be kept secret. The looters to be frustrated. How to keep a secret? Silence those who built it. When the last warrior was placed a mass death warrant was signed. The bones of 8000 silenced to be found in nearby pits by archaeologists. Buried like the warriors they created. Forgotten but not. For those faces stare on.

The policeman spoke English. Taught in school and self-taught more. His air weighted with sadness. Polite conversation. “Have you traveled outside China?” His look at the ground. “It is not possible. Policemen are not allowed to leave the country. We can’t even get passports. This is just another North Korea. When I graduated from school I took a Government test. The test said I was to be a policeman. My family forced me to do it. I was trapped. Now I must work another 30 years until I can retire. Maybe then I can travel abroad. Maybe then… He seemed near tears. I would’ve hugged him if not for the cameras.

Governments change, as does their method of killing you. These days in China the method just seems a lot slower.

(July 30, 2015)

The Mountains of Hua Shan

(July 25, 2015) One in seven humans claim Chinese nationality. That’s a lot of folks. Most of them seem to prefer to congregate in an eastern population belt. Which we had been making our way through. Some byproducts. Crowds. Think weekend Disneyland wherever you went. Skyscrapers. From the big city to the humblest town people living upward. And pollution. Uniformly green sky without gap. At Xian we made plans of evasion. Two hours away lay the Taoist sacred mountains of Hua Shan. A temporary respite from all three.Halteman_Mountains of Hua Shan_FullSizeRender-1

Sometimes plans unravel early. The road to Hua Shan was lined with skyscrapers. On arrival the dense smog strangled the mountains into hills. And the crowds launched, to my efforts, a concerted campaign of irritating obstruction. I purchased the first of 14 tickets. Clean air was expensive. My mood blackened. Tickets 7 8 9 and 10 were for the cable car up and down the mountain. This reflected a compromise from earlier familial negotiations concerning our mountain hike. Fumiko having a healthy and reasonable fear of such expeditions based on earlier experiences. There would be no foot climb. The line for the cable car was devastating. There were lines to get into the lines. My teeth made contact and began to reduce themselves.Halteman_Mountains of Hua Shan_FullSizeRender-2

The stewing needed to end. As the line tried inching forward Fumiko took my hand. “It’s going to be OK. We’re going to have fun.” Misery is often a decision. A fork in the road chosen. I was with the most important person in my world. Was that not more than enough? Outlook reduced to an insight. I backtracked to the fork and hustled down it’s other branch. That simple.

The cable car held eight people. It’s ascent up vertical white granite for thousands of feet brought to mind reverse BASE jumping. Fear and thrill danced. I buried my fear as solid fathers must. We crested. But we weren’t at the end. The cable car went over the summit just like a car going over a hoop de do on a country road. Weightlessness. Only here there was no landing. The cable car matched its ascent with an equal plunge. The earth yawned. Solid became liquid. I yelped. A young Chinese mother grabbed me. No time to consider her after life companion. Fumiko went wild. Sometimes a line earns you something.
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Eventually the cable car gave up trying to reach the true summit. Instead it entered a tunnel and deposited us. We emerged into unshrouded sunshine for the first time since arriving in China. The crowd still milled but we were willing to take two out of three. And what crowds! Ages, shapes, outfits. Nothing was unrepresented from spiked heels to centarians. United by two observations. One they were Chinese. As in 99% Chinese. This had been universal since arriving in China. The identifiable tourist had always been less than 1% non Chinese. The other 99% of people wandering around behaving in an identifiably touristic manner were locals. There is money here now and the Chinese are using it to see the homeland. Two, was the obvious enthusiasm. These folks were escaping the same three. They had bought the same tickets. Smiled patiently through the same lines. Now it was time to party hike. We jumped in the graceful current.

For centuries religious recluses lived in and on these peaks. Searching for their needed answers. Left alone, guarded by inaccessibility. No more. Now the five Granite peaks are linked by a circular path hacked from stone or imposed by concrete. At one point an optional 2 foot wide plank walk allows for a 2000 foot fall should error visit. Which it does. This is the part of the trail where the “timid would feel rather horrified” according to the sign. The rest of the trail tracks granite free falls whenever possible. Precipices protected by a single chain linking metal posts. Endearingly tens of thousands of padlocks have been clipped onto the links. Their keys launched. Forever locking in love or a dream.
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Leaning against these chains, looking down at clouds, recalls something primordial. An illogical urge to launch. Not to die. Just to know. I remember a story of a man who nightly dreamed strongly of flying. On Half Dome in Yosemite he stood on the edge. The dream returned. He turned to his friend said something to the effect of “I think I can do it.” Climbers remember a woosh. Looking down they saw a plummeting man flapping wildly. At the time the story seemed ridiculous. But pushing against the chain made me not so sure. And I blinked and pulled back. What the hell, I don’t even like heights.
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The current carried us to all five peaks. The crowds receded in focus and the mountains took center stage. As a Chinese wood block artist would have painted them had he never seen them. A storm stumbled into one peak and then threw in some thunder for drama. We hid in a temple under the watchful eyes of Gods. The storm moved on. Fumiko tested her limits on wet boulders, her trusty Chuck Taylor hightops never faltering. The day dimmed. It was time to leave the mountains alone to their dreams. And we did.

Buried Things

(July 18, 2015) Some of the 9000 soldiers meant to be the Emperor’s army in the afterlife. Their wood weapons long ago rotted away. Discovered by a farmer when he drilled a well in 1974. Each face distinctly modeled on the individual faces of the 8000 workers who created them. Their reward? Immediate execution upon completion of the tomb to conceal the whereabouts of the buried army.

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2000 -year-old army on the move

2000 -year-old army on the move

Waiting patiently for rescue.

Waiting patiently for rescue.

Horse half entombed

Horse half entombed

Horses buried alive with their stone chariots 1800 years ago

Horses buried alive with their stone chariots 1800 years ago